Why Me??

Tonight as I was going to bed a couple of thoughts came over me and as I laid there more thoughts started coming about WHY ME??    So I had to get up and start sharing this.


This last week was kinda of rough for me being so sick and struggling to breathe and Tuesday I had to have another Cat scan.  I have done so many Cat Scans and MRI's that I should light up like a Christmas tree.


As this machine was whirling around my head and taking picture, I started to have a moment of a pity party and though WHY ME???   Why do I have to be sick? Why do I have to be stuck with all these needles? Why do I have to have all these test? Why do I have to hurt all the time?
WHY ME??  I am serving you God. WHY ME??


Here Paul is writing about something's that have happened to him,


2 Corinthians 11:23-28  ²³ Are they servants of Christ? (I am out of my mind to talk like this.) I am more. I have worked much harder, been in prison more frequently, been flogged more severely, and been exposed to death again and again. ²⁴ Five times I received from the Jews the forty lashes minus one. ²⁵ Three times I was beaten with rods, once I was pelted with stones, three times I was shipwrecked, I spent a night and a day in the open sea, ²⁶ I have been constantly on the move. I have been in danger from rivers, in danger from bandits, in danger from my fellow Jews, in danger from Gentiles; in danger in the city, in danger in the country, in danger at sea; and in danger from false believers. ²⁷ I have labored and toiled and have often gone without sleep; I have known hunger and thirst and have often gone without food; I have been cold and naked. ²⁸ Besides everything else, I face daily the pressure of my concern for all the churches.


As this was going in his life  I wondered if Paul didn't think to himself  sometimes, WHY ME??


God I am serving you, I am getting forty lashes, 5 times, WHY ME??
God I am winning people to Christ, three times beaten with rods, WHY Me?
God I am trusting you, Three times shipwrecked, WHY ME??




Paul gets having bad things happening to a follower of Jesus Christ. and yet he boasts about it.


Paul knew God had a plan for his life and as Steve Lingafelter has told me so many times as he was battling with Cancer, God has a plan and it is a good plan. Even in the last few days Steve told me God still has a plan and I am going with God's plan.


So many of us go through hard times in our life, whether it is sickness, finances, or physical needs, maybe even family problems  or marital problems.


All of the problems we all have it most likely brings us to  ask the same question WHY ME???




The thought that made it so I couldn't sleep was this, WHY NOT ME???  WHY NOT NATE??


Jesus told God three times he didn't want to go with the Plan, he wanted a plan B but there was no plan B so Jesus went with God's plan.  It wasn't an easy plan, it was a painful plan, it was a plan of suffering and eventually dying on a cross??


WHY NOT ME???


Through all the surgeries, tumors removed, skin graft that done, poked by needles and bruised because of it. Having a lung disease, celiac disease, diverticulitis, degenerative spine disease, bulging disc on my lower back and now they think I am getting diabetes from all the predisone.


I am not saying this to make you feel sorry for me but I am sharing these with you so you can see the glory of God and that I know he has a plan for me and it is a good plan.


IN the midst of all my problems, God's plan for me is working in my life.


I have grown in trusting God more in my walk with Him. Trust in the lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.  I don't always get why but I know God has it


My Faith in God is overwhelming. you can't experience true faith in God until he is the only solution to your situation.


I am more Caring and loving on others, especially those going through medical or physical problems.


I truly Appreciate every day and try to live it as if its my last.


I appreciate my family more.


I am changing lives for the glory of God.


God's plan has grown me in so many many ways through all my struggles.


I want to keep growing in my walk with God and I never want it to stop.


So as I go from WHY ME to WHY NOT ME in my life, here is my prayer??


God please give me the strength to keep walking through the doors I need to walk through.
 Glorify Yourself in my life. I thanks you for my physical problems and the struggles I have because they have made me a stronger Christian and a more loving and compassionate man.


Help me to be a light to others that may be going through some darkness or feeling overwhelmed but the situations of life. If someone is going to have to travel this road God, WHY NOT ME?? I am willing to follow your plan no matter where it takes me. I ask this all for your glory and In the name of Jesus, Amen




My prayer for you is that you can also go from WHY ME to WHY NOT ME in your life??




Just a thought.