God’s Got This

The last 2 weeks has been some kind of craziness. We found out on Wednesday a week before Thanksgiving that the bottom part of Stephanie’s heart was not working. Thursday we were told we need to get her an echocardiogram on Friday. On Friday morning as we were traveling to the test, we got a call from OSU Ross heart center that they wanted to schedule the day before Thanksgiving for her to have a heart Cath, an EPS (electrical test) on her heart and put in a pacemaker.

 

This all came at us really fast and did not give us a while lot of time to process the whole thing. We also wanted to share with our children especially Sam and Kyla who live at home still and help them process this and make a plan for them while mom spent a couple of days in the hospital.

 

As we prayed about it and wondered what their response would be, this is what we got from them. We told Sam on Saturday night and told Kyla when she got home Sunday morning  before church so we could let people in church know what was going on.

 

Here is the response I got from my 18 and 15 year old. We have seen dad leave in an ambulance and have seen him survive so many times in the hospital and so this is no big deal, God has this!!!

Because they have seen God be faithful in my life so many times, this was no big deal to them.

 

Sometimes though I have to remind myself also that God has this in control. I have given God my wife and children as I have dealt with my health issues and have told God, if I can’t take care of them then he will have to. God has chosen to allow me to have them in my life.

 

One of the times I had to remind myself that God has this. When they took Stephanie out for the Heart Cath in the morning it was so fast we didn’t get time to say anything but love you and she was gone. Then we waited about 4 or 5 hours until they came to get her for the Electric test on heart and I asked if they were going to put in a pacemaker. They said if it takes more than an hour then you can assume we are putting in a pacemaker and we said I love you and she was gone again for almost 6 hours.

When they took her I went to visit a friend in the James Cancer Center and then went to get something to eat. It had been about 2 hours now and no one had called me and so I thought well they must be putting in a pacemaker.

 

Then something from a dark place brought a thought to me, what if Stephanie doesn’t make it. This brought up many bad and sad thoughts. Through tears I had to recommit myself to God and to give my wife to God again and thank Him for the time I have had and that I was okay with His plan no matter what it was but that I would love to have my wife back.  I had to remind myself that God has this. With this came a peace that was overwhelming and I went back to our room to wait for Stephanie to get back. A few more hours and they roll Stephanie back into the room. The dr. came and said everything went fine. 

 

You would think this would be the end to this journey with God and Stephanie.

 

Last night we had to go to the ER for Stephanie and they found a blood clot and gave her blood thinner and sent us home. Again we tell the kids who had to spend the night together alone and it again is no big deal. They want to know what we are going through. They want to be a part of the process. We share my health issues and now Stephanie’s issues but we also talk about how Big God is and His faithfulness and that God has a plan and it is a good plan!!!!!  

 

The biggest thing I want for my children and those around me to understand is that God is big enough for your situation. There is no situation too big or too small for God. God has it in His hands!!

 

If you are going through some difficulties this Christmas season and are struggling, I want you to know that the Creator of the Universe is on your side. He loves you and cares for you.

 

There are people (our children, neighbors, co-workers) around you watching how you respond in your sickness, in your struggles, in your hurts, and in your sorrows.

 

 They are watching to see if God is really as Big as we say He is.

They are watching to see if we truly believe what we say about God.

They are watching to see if we live in such a way that shows our Faith in God is real.

 

My prayer for you is that, No Matter what you are going through, whether it is a life or death situation or just some smaller struggles with life you understand and can believe that……………..

 

God Has This!!!!

 

 

Just a Thought!!!